Tuesday, January 1, 2008

Auld Lang Syne



I forgot that I have a weekly podcast...

I forgot to write...

I forgot about the mathematician...

NO WAY... I FORGOT about the mathematician????

It's nice to remember... and in that space to find that I never had left.

I spent over a week away from my piano but I didn't beat myself silly for returning to my practice feeling stiff. I've barely played due to scratching up my knuckles. It's another story with my podcast. I've taken 3 weeks off. The first week was due to illness, the second was due to travelling and last week was purely due to mismanaging my time. The frustrated part of me wants to say FORGET IT whereas the other parts of me says SO WHAT... RETURN.

I forgot that I enjoy writing and podcasting, I've been busy enjoying other things. As for the mathematician...

:)

What is remembering and making resolutions really about? I considered this question in ushering the new year.

Remembering? We sing Auld Lang Syne at every new year's celebration. But why celebrate remembering days gone by? Nostalgia? Bringing old friends to mind for that little mental thank you as we go into the unknown and hopeful future? To cheer ourselves up in recalling good memories?

Not intending to begin a new year with a euphemistically expressed WHAM BAM, thanks for the memories, NSA attitude, I allowed Auld Lang Syne to show me the threads laid down on the growing tapestry and I was shown a bit of perspective in "remembering" those things that I am still becoming acquainted with.

I am not a rock star podcaster. I'm learning. It's not second nature to kick out a show from my head YET. I'm learning many other things and in the process of learning to juggle my interests, I drop balls. Dropping things is NOT fun and its unrealistic to live a mistake-free life. I meet up with spats of feeling discouraged. I sometimes feel lazy about picking things up again. And the positives of the experience begin to fade from the forefront of life and get stored away like old pictures.

But life isn't a THING to store away... it's this organic adventure that builds skill upon skill... an adventure that never stops teaching and is humbling and exciting at the same time. And because LIFE simply IS all that... juggling one's self in a cathedral while fireworks sparkle around makes for an engaging eternal NOW of forgetting and remembering and creating resolve.

Maybe a good New Year's resolution is to be a person of resolutions?

RESOLUTION: the mental state or quality of being resolved or resolute; firmness of purpose.

Music.
a. the progression of a voice part or of the harmony as a whole from a dissonance to a consonance.

b. the tone or chord to which a dissonance is resolved.
From dissonance to consonance....

I love thinking of life like music.

Here's to Auld Lang Syne... to forgetting and remembering... to creating resolutions from dissonance to consonance.

I will podcast and write and live and love... sometimes not at the same time... but in a way... I AM always about all these things... preparing a cadence.

Here's to toasting to a beautiful, new year :)

JNET