The Secret People

What values motivate Oprah? How does the mind of Trump, Gates, and Buffet work? What thought patterns does a billionaire take on and where do I stand within that?

It's a seminar. It's a party. It's a peel yourself like an onion and take stock of your life by kicking your own backside celebration.

Freud's world of psychoanalysis-years-of-therapy program is grossly outdated by the new technologies of digging into the mind with Christopher Howard's "Breakthrough to Success" program.... a primer into a world where one can REPROGRAM oneselves from self-defeating habits and create roads towards a life that is open to success quicker than Freud can clean his false wooden teeth and return for your session.

A certain "exercise" reconfigured my emotions over a certain moment within minutes. I cried my eyes over it for a second and was OVER it ENTHUSIASTICALLY. NO, silly, I wasn't BRAINWASHED... I am on a mission to CLEAN HOUSE.

I had lunch with a woman who cuts million dollar deals as a product developer. She was frustrated that she kept hitting an income ceiling of $200,000 a year. She felt capable of more and wanted to study herself and see how she can bump herself up.

Would it be worth it to you to spend a weekend to focus and get down and dirty with your limiting thoughts? It was for me.

I had lunch with a retired toy designer from Mattel. He was wondering how he might enjoy his retirement and be productive at the same time. He's retired at age 42. He has a lot of life to yet be creative but in a different way.

I had lunch with a musican. He has several projects on the go and wanted to get clear with steps towards future goals to record and tour... as well as publish a book he's working on.

I attended because I have a book I'm writing and wish to have a complete and have registered at the writer's guild by June 1. I'm also looking at finding an illustrator for the cover and self-publishing....and it is a new world to me because I am a music teacher by vocation. I took the course because I knew I had reservations about having my world change QUICKLY and I wanted to prepare my mind for it.

Like anyone in the planet, I deal with life.... I get discouraged or distracted. I deal with thoughts of losing control of my life within the changes. But I WANT the change, I WANT the success, I HAVE SOMETHING TO CONTRIBUTE and the road hits the occasional speed bump. But I will not veer off course.

And so after watching movies such as "The Secret" and "What the Bleep"... after listening to certain progressive radio's talk show hosts such as Lisa Garr of the Aware Show, after being involved with groups such as T. Harv Ecker, EMI and Landmark and collecting a world of wonderful supportive people, I decided to see what Christopher Howard had to say... He's part of a circle of people I admire and are teachers in my life...

It was A LOT. A party over neuro-linguistic programming, quantum physics, new technologies in the psychology realm with the Warren Buffet of the personal development field... makes for an intensive day that makes me excited to go for more the next day as I discover things about myself and see ways to realize my goals sooner than later.

Tomorrow is the final day of my 3 day seminar. It's been quite a revelation AND I did get present to some self-defeating ways of being that is slowing my publishing progress. Keeping up with the language is fast-paced and sophisticated but I'm riding the waves, BABY!

More thoughts tomorrow, after I end my final day at Christopher Howard's "Breakthrough to Success" Weekend...

JNET

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Power, Money, and Mom

I have just finished talking to mom.

Earlier this month I had attended a Money workshop with T. Harv Ecker and I was able to recall a memory from the past that had been part of my serious programming on my relationship to money.

I was listening to his CD when I realized that I needed to share my workshop experience with mom.

This is how my life was profoundly changed within the first day of my attendance. ....

9am: Everyone (meaning at least 2400 people) is sitting in their chairs when a questionaire and a list of money belief statements are passed out. It has statements like ..

"Money is the root of all evil."

"Having a lot of money will make me less spiritual or pure."

"Most rich people probably did something bad or dishonest to get their money."

"Getting rich is a matter of luck or fate." ETC ETC ETC

I disagreed with most of the statements... There were 72 all together.

The one statement that I agreed with and gave a 10 score was...

"Having lots of money is a big responsibility."

I had filled out a questionaire slightly earlier... The sentence began...

"MONEY is ....."

I had written in the blank... "A HUGE RESPONSIBILITY."

Later in the evening, I partner with my friend Ryan and we bring out the papers from the morning. I share my answers and speculate on my "responsibility statement".. Perhaps I'm afraid of growing up.. I wonder.

I shared my speculations with my mom today... I mention that her desk is usually quite intimidating and I tell her maybe I'm afraid to get to a a point where my desk will look like hers... and she seems to stress out over it. She says her desk makes sense to her; she just needs an office and she'll be better organized...

I continue to tell her what I later discovered the first evening of the workshop...

Later after dinner of my first day at the workshop, I partner with another friend, Kevin. We're asked to recall the first memory we can recall regarding money. That was an easy one for me. It had been branded into my memory. I had one main memory in my filing cabinet.

Funny, when I asked my mom what she thought my first memory with money was, she thought it was the rewards I would get for working on a piano piece or the first time I got paid for teaching my first piano lessons while in Junior High...

I expected the possibility that she wouldn't remember.

This was my memory....

My first memory with money was when I was five years old. My auntie drove me to sunday school while my mom was unable to... I thought maybe she was stuck home with my brothers and had to ask my aunt to help her.

I was given a dollar to gift her for driving me to church. My auntie refused the dollar and I came home with the dollar. My mom got upset and I decided that it wasn't a good idea that my aunt didn't accept the gift and I thought it unfair that she was upset at me.

The following week my auntie drove me to church again and I had another dollar to gift her with. She refused again... I put it on the dash, the ashtray, the cup holder. I remember not being happy with her not accepting the dollar and got frustrated.

I arrived home and went straight into my pajamas and just wanted to hide or sleep. My mom called me down after talking to my aunt. She was upset and asked me where the dollar was. I went upstairs to retrieve it and when I returned she took it and spanked me.. telling me she wasn't about to raise a little girl who steals.

It was the only time in my life that I was ever spanked by my mother.

We talked about that memory today. I told her how significant that memory was because I felt an injustice over that dollar.. I never voiced my part and when I was five I simply got scared and disappointed that my mom didn't talk with me first before the spanking.... and perhaps that was why I had a tenuous relationship with money especially from her and perhaps that added some color to why I thought money is a huge responsibility.

A five year old's decision dictated my life... handling everything on my own, without help, dreading asking for help... If I needed money, I never asked mom. I put myself through college. I struggle by myself. I bought my own car and piano.... never asking help... never celebrating the decisions...

We had a good cry. She couldn't remember ever spanking me. ..but when I asked her how old she was then. She realized how young she was and that she was taking care of three small children alone while my dad with out to sea and that it was the first time that she had to work and be away from us.

I told her that I came to that realization while at the workshop. I had connected to how overwhelming it must have been to be raising us and not having her husband with her. I told her it was okay for her to lose her head. What I created out of that experience was beyond her knowledge and memory. I was able to connect some major dots and was able to forgive the past and create a clear space for my future.

It was great to share this memory with my mom. It was sad that a moment's reaction could have such power. That I, as a five year old, had such power to create decisions and create a world from it.

I wanted also for my mom to consider her own memories. What can she connect for herself so that she can create freedom in making choices for her future... what things from her past did she need to let go.

It is great that I can have this kind of communication with my mom.

JNET


I highly recommend T. Harv Ecker's "Millionaire Mind Intensive"....

Feel free to email me with any questions...and check out his website:



http://www.millionairemind.com/

A New Month ... what to bring into existence....

Nicole left for Mexico for the month to do makeup on a movie. It's me and Bebo(her pet bunny) until December...

I'd like to write some things into existence...

My financial status changes dramatically. I am making the calls and making new friends and contacts. I am meeting incredibly fun and creative and ambitious people that want to work with me. They are creators and builders. We work together inspired and transformed beyond who we once were before we met one another. Together we are a powerhouse of creativity, encouragement, expression and manifestation.

I am writing and playing and learning and teaching. I am in training... and I meet more mentors to take me to the next levels of my life. It is fun and exciting to learn about creating the changes I want. And I learn very quickly. Life is joyful to be expressive through my art, my ideas, my relationships, my work.

I am committed. I am not distracted. I am not weighed down by drama of my own nor anyone's. I bring resolution to conflict and I speak powerfully to clear up confusion. The strength of my life is spoken through the testimony of the team that stands by my side.

It's a wonderful November. It's gorgeous and I adore my life even more and the blessings that keep coming.... keep coming... God keeps winking to make me smile to keep me playing the game and having fun.

And so I shall say in advance, thank you, God.